I am just not sure how to update tonight. Part of me thinks I should just not update but we have come too far with this blog relationship to keep secrets, huh?
So here goes..
As many of you know I have been having some medical issues and trying to fit in my appts around Philip's. Things got more complicated today . I must admit I am overwhelmed and worried. I just can not help it. Tomorrow I may feel different but tonight I feel just....what is the right word...Oh I am not sure...
As you may remember I had surgery back Oct 31st for a mass on my ovary. It was taken out and I have been recovering . Due to some follow up appts I had some blood work that came back abnormal and a mass that was found in my neck. Fast forward to me going to see a Dr at the cancer center. He was very concerned and ordered some special test to be done. And a STAT appt for a mammogram and a surgical consult for the mass.
The mammogram was done yesterday. I had to be called back to redo the left side and then a ultrasound. A mass was found that was very clear on both scans. So the cancer Dr has my records and will be calling me tomorrow.
Today was the surgical appt that was a little more scary then I thought it would be. I thought they would be able to just remove it with a small little procedure. But unfortunately the mass has grown and is in a really bad place for removal. Today I had a uncomfortable procedure in the office to see what and how we needed to proceed. It was clear I needed a operation that is not simple in the least. I am going to try to not go into too many details...but I do want to explain what I am having done.
I will have a procedure done tomorrow to map the mass out with the blood supply and path. I would of had it done today but I have to be premeditated. I will go for that tomorrow. Then Monday I will have a biopsy done to get a pre idea of what the mass is. Then Wednesday I will have the mass removed. The Dr went into great detail about the operation and it was not easy to listen to. She will need to make a incisions in my neck and go in to remove the mass. By doing this she will need to cut the bone and redirect some of that area. This area involves my voice area and my swallowing in my throat. I will need to have a drain and a lot of wound care. As I said the Dr went into great detail and it was hard to hear. I am going to admit I am scared.
The Dr said I would need to wait till Monday of the following week for the biposy results.
She also explained that my my recovery would be rough and I would not be allowed to do anything for atleast three weeks except lay down due to the draining etc. She told me to go home and get my xmas done this weekend.
I had 12 blood test done today...4 of them detailed cancer studies and clotting studies. I also had my pre op and my EKG done. And like I said I will have the mapping study done tomorrow for the operation.
Now some of you may remember that tomorrow is Philip's 3 scans . I have worked it out with my inlaws to take him and then they will take him to Arnold Palmer to have his shunt reset. My main goal tomorrow is to get a appt with the Dr for the test results before my operation. I need to get him settled bere I have my operation.
I have to admit ...that today when the DR told me to come home and get my xmas in order because I will not be able to do it after my operations. I felt awful. I am thankful she cared enough to tell me to do this...but I am sad it has to be done that way.
I was due to have a full pet scan done next week to see if anything showed up...but we will now have to reschedule. I also am waiting to see what the Cancer Dr wants to do about the lump found on the mammogram and follow up ultrasound.
I just wanted this Christmas to be special . And I know all Christmas are special. But due to Philip's medical worries ..I just had myself set for a special holiday. Maybe that makes me selfish.
I guess I explained everything...the best I can. So now we wait ....