Just got back from the hospital. Jim is still there in the heart center. He is still having very high BP. I just have no idea why or what ion the world is going on. Today seem to kind of drag with just trying some different meds and tonight the DR came in and out one after the other. So tomorrow he will be having a lot of new testing done and I hope so clear answers. Cause BP 225/155 is not going to be something that is okay. One concern is could the epidural caused some type of issue with his BP...so he will be having a new MRI tomorrow. Also a heart scan . And some other test on his kidneys. I know he will be okay . But I would like for it to be right now so I can just KNOW he will be okay. He just needs to be okay.
The appt this morning with the DR was rough. Hard. Blunt. And he just was not easy on me. He said what he thought. I listened. I said I was sorry. I told him I would not beg to stay in the program for Philip. I told him I thought he was the best DR for Philip. I told him that I never meant any sneaky awful behavior with the issue. I made a mistake and I was sorry. I then said. As I said I will not beg. I am asking for a second chance but if you want us out then I will understand and we will find a new DR. He said we would work on a new start. I must say..that in the end of this..I learned a lot and a lesson. Maybe this will make me a stronger advocate for Philip in the end.
There are some medical updates too. But I am going to hold off on those until we get some more info from the neurosurgeons. It is complicated and scary. And to be honest. I am so tired I just can not explain it tonight. I will just say that it is complex and I just am not sure there is a clear path. So I will pray. And I bet many of you will join me in praying for a clear answer for Philip and his DR.
I had my treatment. Long , hard and done. One more week done.
My mom got her a hr ago.
And I am going to need to spend tomorrow laying down more because I have had some set backs from my surgery and it is a clear sign of overdoing. Somehow my body does not understand the idea that ...I just gotta do this or that...and it has rebelled. I think it is going to win...
I will update tomorrow about Jim. I hope it is great news.
Hugs to all my wonderful supportive friends. Today I could FEEL the support. And today I needed it. Tomorrow is a new day and it will be a blessed one.