Friday, February 27, 2009

Going To Be A Long Night

It is 2:30 am and Philip just came in hurting and having more of the same issues last night. He has had a lot of medication today including his seizures medications and some additional medication tonight to help him rest. It is not going to work...and here I am his mom at 2 am and can do NOTHING else to help.
You know..I would do anything to help him. I love that young man more then anything in this world. While he has truly been blessed to be alive today..he sure has had a rough time of it. I just so need to find a way to help him physically and emotionally. I mean he is just a kid...and he has been doing this so very long.
I never in my worse dreams would of thought this mean years later..here we would be....not better and ever worse...I am so thankful I did not know what was going to happen. I swear I think it would of ruined all of us. At least we had hope that everything would be okay. And I know tomorrow I will work on having that hope again. But tonight I am a worn out mom who is sick from her treatment and tired of not being able to do what a mom wants and needs to do..take her sons hurt away..
Tomorrow will be better.It just has to be..
Once again..Thanks for letting me have a sounding board. This is my biggest blessing on the harder days.

8 comments:

April said...

Amy~
You are so very right. I can't think of much that's harder than seeing your child sick or hurting and not being able to do one single thing to make it all better. It just goes completely against being a mom...we're supposed to be able to save the world, and it doesn't always happen quite like that. What you can do is tell Philip how much you love him and continue to be there for him. You are a great Mom, Amy! I hear it in every word you write...and your kids know it!!!

God Bless You, my friend. Today IS going to be better!

Grace said...

Ya know what I'm going to say... ya know? Hugs
Hoping you all got some sleep before Jim's appt this AM.

Rebecca Jo said...

praying for you all!!!

Vickie said...

Oh Amy, I am sorry that Philip is hurting so. I'm praying for you all. Praying for comfort for Philip and peace for you my friend.

Melissa said...

(((hugs))) wish I could be there to help!

misty said...

Hugs, girl.That is one of the hardest things as a mom, seeing your child suffer and not being able to make it better.Amy,you are a great mom to your kids and being there for them and showing them how much you care, is the best. Praying for some relief for Philip and you all very soon.

Michelle Riggs said...

praying for you all. I know just how long and tiring those nights can be. Praying for comfort and strength.

Please pray for my daughter, Abby.

Alexis AKA MOM said...

Oh Girl what a joy and sad thing all wrapped up. I wish there is more I could do then just be here and be a sounding board. You hang in there girl, you're in our thoughts and prayers!