This morning I meet with the Dr to see what he wants to do about Philip and this awful pain issue and weakness he has going on in his left side. There is some added stress of this appt because of my last appt This will be the first time I see him since that appt.
I pray for a clear answer for Philip and a understanding from the doctor. I think it has been good that I have not seen him for a few weeks because I have a little different thought about it. If he does not get where I was coming from then he is not the right DR for Philip. But deep down the idea of knowing he is the best one to do it makes me know I need this appt to go the way it needs to go. I am trying to hand it over to God. He knows what is best even when I think I know better.
Something scary has happened and I need to ask for prayers, once again. Over this last week Jim has had some issues with his BP. The reason we know this is because he has had a few Dr appts. A week ago Jim had a scan of his back due to some back pain. It was found he had a disc problem and they suggested he see a Dr for a epidural. We were excited that they would be able to treat it this way before even thinking of any surgery options. At that appt his BP was very high. The DR said it was due to pain. When they did the scan his BP was very high again. The following day at the epidural place his pressure was high but they said he was nervous. The day of the scan they had to give him meds to get it down. So two days ago he felt bad and ended up in the ER with his BP real high they gave him a pill...I can not think of the name..under the tongue and it went down and he came home. I called and had him a appt this morning with his DR to get to the bottom of this. Last night he started sweating real bad and felt like he was going to pass out. He said I needed to call 911. Of course that scared me too death. I got him to sit down and got his dad here. he got him to the ER and his BP was 225/155. They gave him meds non stop and it stayed up. I spoke with the DR and they were taking him to a cat scan to rule out a clot. He has been admitted in the heart wing. Of course here I am not able to sit up from my operation. Loading up on pain meds for a 8 am appt to see the Dr for Philip. And just not sure what I needed to do last night. His mom was stern with me that I needed to be well enough to do Philip's appt today and my treatment today. I have been sick all week from the operation and the treatment last week. So I am not sure I would of been any help. Plus the germs in the ER could of been really dangerous for me. BUT..today something is going to happen. I am NOT going to NOT know if he is okay..I hate not being there with him. I had thought that the heart center is not as sickly with germs ...I could slip up for a few minutes and just make sure he is okay.
He has never had BP issues. And even with all the stress meds would be taking it down. I am scared something is going to happen to him.
I am so thankful he is in the right place and they are taking such good care of him.
My mom is coming tonight. Thank Goodness.
I know this is all going to be okay. But I slept none of any and I just feel real on edge. baby steps...first get this appt done and over with. I am so over thinking about it. Then get to the bottom of what is wrong with Jim , Get him fixed and well and HOME. Then get my treatment. Stock up on SF frozen pops ...and start fresh tomorrow. Can I get a Amen?