Just Some Stuff

I am here to reach out to all my amazing blogging friends.  I have been holding a lot in lately and to be honest it is not working so well.  I sorta feel like things are falling apart. I wonder why I have such a hard time sharing all this and the truth is I guess it his because I feel like a failure or a freak. I am sick .  Philip is struggling every single day and Cole is very sick.  If I let myself think too much about it I start to think "I must be doing something wrong" because everything seems to be falling apart. Deep down I know that I am not to blame for this but on the surface I get these feelings of anxiety .

I am going to post Cole's webpage here and if you would take a minute to go and read the story it will fill you in on what is going on.  

I have felt such support in the past from all of you . Thank you for allowing me a safe place to share.

Cole
 

In a Rut?

So with my new faking it till I make it attitude I have a few odd and ends I wanted to ask this week.  I think a good place to start with would be....what have you all been cooking for your family? Do you find yourself in a rut?  I do . I find myself cooking things over and over.  I think one of my main problems is...I am selfish.  I have to watch my sugars very closely.  Being on the medications I am on my sugars have taken a hit.  I have been told I am one bite away from insulin..Oh wow that makes it pretty clear.  So I find myself knowing if I cook these amazing meals filled with carbs I will end up eating them.  First of all I am a carb lover BUT also I am a comfort food eater.  I love nice thick cheesy , friend, yummy carb filled dishes.  I know there are TONS of amazing LC meals out there.  I guess I have become a tad lazy lately.  I know I sound awful, huh? 

So what is everyone feeding their families?  Any great recipes?

Is anyone here? Anyone?

I figured out something in the middle of the night.  I think the reason I have not been blogging is  cause I sorta do not like myself right now and really have nothing to offer or share. But being the selfish person I am I miss all of you .  I am going to work real hard at just doing what I do best.  Sharing.  The good, the bad and the ugly.  I have to remind myself that those who read , do it because the want to.  Even if I vent if should be okay cause no one is forced to read it.  Right?  RIGHT? 

Things have been rough.  If I were being honest I would share that things have been so rough that I have been struggling with just everyday life.  I go between trying to fake it , which wears me out and falling apart.  Ladies ...it is not pretty.

So many times I have a thought or see something I think I have to share this on my blog.  And then life gets in the way.  But I am here and I am reaching out.  I hope some of you are still out there and will let me know you are still around.

 

Check back tomorrow...I will be here.