Friday, February 25, 2011

Just Some Stuff

I am here to reach out to all my amazing blogging friends.  I have been holding a lot in lately and to be honest it is not working so well.  I sorta feel like things are falling apart. I wonder why I have such a hard time sharing all this and the truth is I guess it his because I feel like a failure or a freak. I am sick .  Philip is struggling every single day and Cole is very sick.  If I let myself think too much about it I start to think "I must be doing something wrong" because everything seems to be falling apart. Deep down I know that I am not to blame for this but on the surface I get these feelings of anxiety .

I am going to post Cole's webpage here and if you would take a minute to go and read the story it will fill you in on what is going on.  

I have felt such support in the past from all of you . Thank you for allowing me a safe place to share.

Cole
 

10 comments:

Nikke said...

Amy I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this.
You and your family are in my prayers each and every day.

Jen said...

Hi Amy ~

I am still here for you, and always will be. I was so incredibly sad to read about Cole. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs, from the highest mountain...

"Doesn't this family have enough going on ??????"

Honey, I am so sorry for all you continue to endure. I wish I could wrap you up in a hug, but I know that only goes so far.

I am here for you. I will always be. I wish i could take your pain away. I wish there was some way to make it better.

Whatever feels best is what's best for you. To write, or not. I feel a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders after I beat the keyboard to shreds :o)

We all love you here, and anything you write, whether it be the good, the bad, the ugly, we all still love you after.

My thoughts are with you and your beautiful family always.

My prayers are for continued strength ;o)

Love,

Jen

misty said...

Oh Amy, all that you are having to deal with is unimaginable. It is just so much.No one knows how or what you are feeling. we are not in your shoes. So I'm not going to pretend to know, but I am a friend and am here to support you. I will keep praying that things get better for you and your family. I pray for Cole, Philip and your healing,and for strength for each day. Never forget what an amazing person you are. God bless you and your family!

Christy said...

I have not read your blog in quite a while. My heart just ached as I read through your blog and then the caring bridge site. I am so so very sorry y'all are struggling so much. I will say prayers for y'all as I know how hard it is to watch your child suffer and not know what is wrong. :(

Rachel said...

God bless you Amy - still praying for you and your precious family!

Anonymous said...

Praying for you and your family. It sounds like such a hard time. Please come here for support. Hoping for better days real soon.
Hugs,
Tricia

Anonymous said...

Are you ok? I don't know you , but I follow your blog and caring bridge sites. I'm worried about you. I hope everything is going better.
Blair

Ann On and On... said...

Amy..I am wondering how you are? How is your family?

Davis Family said...

I see you haven't updated your blog in quite a while. I have followed your bog for quite a while. I am hoping you and your family are doing okay.
~Deena

Alan and Lynne said...

So missing your comments. I keep checking your care bridge on both boys and here. Praying for comfort for all. Please up date us all soon Prayers LYnne