I am here to reach out to all my amazing blogging friends. I have been holding a lot in lately and to be honest it is not working so well. I sorta feel like things are falling apart. I wonder why I have such a hard time sharing all this and the truth is I guess it his because I feel like a failure or a freak. I am sick . Philip is struggling every single day and Cole is very sick. If I let myself think too much about it I start to think "I must be doing something wrong" because everything seems to be falling apart. Deep down I know that I am not to blame for this but on the surface I get these feelings of anxiety .
I am going to post Cole's webpage here and if you would take a minute to go and read the story it will fill you in on what is going on.
I have felt such support in the past from all of you . Thank you for allowing me a safe place to share.