One Year Ago Tonight...

My baby sister made me a Aunt.  Jackson was born and a dream of being his Aunt was finally here.  I just can not explain to you how much I looked forward to being HIS Aunt.  When I found out my sister was going to have it brought on many emotions.  My family is my mom, my sister and myself.  We were having a baby. God is good.

I had just found out I had cancer .I would lay awake late at night and pray to be with my children and to be here to see Jackson born.

 

How I love being Jackson's aunt..Along with my own children he is my biggest blessing.

When he was three days old I surprised my sister and went t stay with her a week...Talk about heaven..

On my hardest days..I would say Jackson was my natural Xanax...

During my healing time from some operations I would work hard to get a chance to go visit Jackson.


On Sept 30th I posted how much I was missing Jackson and needed to get well to come see him ..soon.


A mere 6 days later our world would change forever.  My heart would break with  heartbreak for my sister and for myself.  I have not been the same since that phone call.

The reality of Jackson dying has changed our family forever. How does anyone ever get over that hurt?  The hurt of seeing your sister tell her only baby goodbye.  Haunts me..I am so very proud of her.

Happy 1st birthday Jackson. Not a day goes by
that I do not think about you. I waited a whole lifetime to be your
Aunt. I love your more then I thought possible. I can not help but
wonder what you are doing today..and everyday. I like to think the
angels rock you every night. I love you Jackson....always..