"Mr. President"..We Are Praying For You.

Today has been a mixture of emotions today. I have thought long and hard about some issues. I decided to do what I do best..come here and share them.
As most of you will recall..I told you long ago that I planned to share the good the bad and the ugly. The funny thing about that statement is...That was before I even got my diagnosis.
I also have said I would not just give a token answer to questions such as..How are you doing..or how are you feeling..I just say it like it is. And lately that has been a little down and frustrated. I am not happy about the repeat surgeries, or my chemo. But I am thrilled to be here and fighting. I will never give up. I depend on God to be in charge of this battle and he gives me the strength to continue to move forward. God and I are a team against Cancer. We are going to win.

I am far from perfect. In fact there is a long list of things I need to work on. But the things you accused me of..are NOT on that list.

But let me also say this. Never Ever for one minute of my life have I ever doubted God loves me and is very much in control of every minute of my life. Just earlier this week..I said I found a saying that so said what my hear felt. God has been holding Philip's hand as he holds my heart..on the harder days. Another thing that has been clear in my blog is..I do NOT believe in luck of chances. I have always said if I thought for one minute that Philip's medical issues and my cancer was a "roll of the dice" I would be a bitter hard person. I know without a doubt that God has a plan for Philip, myself and our family. He truly is in charge. And Thank goodness he is..cause I am sure I would screw it up. Ha.

I think I acted too fast today by sharing the hateful email from Mr. President. In fact I gave this person too much attention today . I have a feeling my response was what this person wanted.
Now that I have shared this with each of you...I want to address a few things and then move on. After tonight I plan to not allow Mr. President to consume anymore of my time or my blog space.

I am who I am. I have been open and as honest as I can be . I started my blog months before I had my operation and my cancer diagnosis. I have shared the good days and the bad days. I have shared the cute sweet family pictures and some hard to look at pictures. Like I said ..the good and the bad. That is not going to change. Not for Mr President or anyone else.

A few days ago I blogged about my desire to start a prayer and praise day on my blog. Praying for others has given me such a awesome feeling. I love the whole concept of Intercessory prayer. I also LOVE to hear about the praises. The wonderful birth stories, adoptions and children who are fighting and winning their own battles. It feels great to take the focus off of myself, Philip and our family issues..and focus on others. That is why I love the blogs so much. You can feel involved in other's lives. I think Mr. Presidents email was a direct cry for "I need prayer".

Today Mr. President has attacked me. And I am a big girl and while it "burned" a little...I have moved on ...My anger turned to sadness for this person. How sad that he has so little in his life he feels the need to attack someone else. I also have to say that I prayed for this person today. It was clear that they need to feel the love of God and maybe that can help heal their heart.

Mr. President then decided that his first attack was not enough. He needed to add more. In response to someone emailing him about how rude his email was...They respond and sent to me the following.

I only fear that Satan has taken over her life.... and is causing her to focus on hateful things........ Apparently there will never be any peace for her.... Do you think this is carma? Or is she a victim of her own devices?

My response to this is..Satan has NOT taken over my life. I strive to be the kind of christian lady that Satan says...Oh no she is awake today..( thank you Sheli for that..lol). Hateful...Heck I am far from hateful. And I strive for peace. Most days I feel it. On the harder days I pray for it. And God blessed me with it. Each day I wake up to my wonderful children and my DH. I thank God for my blessings.

Mr. President then decided that attacking a adult was not enough...so he lowered himself even more. To bring Philip and his illness into this is just about as cruel as can be. I do hope that you can pray for some forgiveness. You must be a miserable and hateful person. Mr. President sent me the following..

Philip is your punishment for being such a bad person. If you keep acting like you are ,he is going to punish you by having Philip die a painful death.

Let me make this clear. Philip is a blessing . God blessed me by allowing me to be his mother. I love to think of God looking around and thinking...who would be blessed by a wonderful child like Philip. And he picked me. I love my son more then I can even explain. I would not change being his mom for ANYTHING in this world.

So Mr. President...I want to thank you for taking time to let me know your feelings. At first I was angry...and now I am just sad for you. What a bitter person you are.

I would like to ask each of you tonight to join me in praying for Mr. President. His heart is bitter . What a sad way to live a life.

I am done with this topic.

Thank you ALL for your support today. You all lifted me up when I was hurting . I am so VERY blessed by each and every one of you. Talk about blessings...ya'll are mine.