Okay I am feeling really guilty about my post last night .
Sometimes I wish I could be more of a person who says it and leaves it alone. Then again I like that I am a person that does not want to hurt anyone...
I want to make sure each of you understands something...the post had NOTHING to do with ANY OF YOU asking questions on here , in emails, on twitter or facebook or the phone. I love that you care and want to know. Do you have any idea what it does to my heart to know that no matter what is going on...with who..or what time of day..Someone will be here to pray ..and they care. That is a true blessing...
I think I was very frustrated last night because ...well because I just feel bad and I am over feeling bad. And maybe I can admit I was feeling a little sorry for myself. Just a little.
I have been thinking that I miss the old me..but the truth is..so much good has come from this hard time. I have found myself being forced to lean on GOD more then I ever had in my life. And that is a wonderful thing. I have forced myself to make more time for my children..and my family. And I have found all of you...so many wonderful new friends...
So while I miss feeling stronger and healthier..I would hate to only think about that and not the good that has come from all of this..
With that being said..I was frustrated..I have people who email me and are very upset that I have not done this or that ...They are mad because I have not shared the deep personal issues of my family. I have had someone be very upset with me because I have ignored emails from them when they say that maybe it would be better for Philip to not be here. I am NOT and will NEVER allow someone to force me to do or feel like I need to do something because I owe it to them. Heck..I am still trying to figure out what I owe to myself and my family.
So for each of you my friends who support me..please do NOT stop posting here..do NOT stop asking how we are doing..I know you do it cause you care..and that is a wonderful feeling on some hard days.
So come on...come here and ask me some questions..make them good..you know you want to..right?
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OK, I need names and addresses. Sounds like I have some tires to slash.
Woops!! I tell ya, I try to control myself but I'm a little protective of you gal!
No questions Amy...you'll share in due time...just keep being you!
Hi Amy
I just found you through Yaya and wanted to drop by just for a quick "hi". But I had to read your post, and then I had to read some more...
I'm so sorry for the things you and your family are going through. I cannot begin to fathom the pain and the devastation of seeing your baby (he still is) going through all of this.
I just pray that you and your family will find those unexpected blessings every day in the midst of everything. God is there with you every step of the way!
Take care and I hope this will be a GOOD week
Amy, please do not worry about what you post on your blog! You owe no one anything! You can choose to do everything and say everything in your own time & way! Please know that I {any many others} am praying for you!
Amy, I don't think you owe anyone who reads your blog any explanations about anything. This is your blog and you have chosen to share with us. and it is your right to share only what you want. Of course, we want all of the details (said with a smile).
You have thru so much with Phillip and your cancer and your life in general. If you don't take care of yourself, you can't take care of your family.
Now, I'll ask my questions (of course I have some). Is there someone coming in to help with Phillip?
And, my standard question, have you started him on the product? I really wish you'd call me on one of your good days so we can talk again. Or e-mail me. If you haven't checked them out yet, the websites are www.relivingpartners.com and www.relivinglife.com
Prayers are with you, Sheryl
Amy~ This post has me in tears...The reason for that is you should NEVER apologize when it is situations like what you stated in that post...If someone truly loves and respects you then they should understand that not only are you fighting a battle for your life, you are also fighting a battle for your son's life...Then to top all of that off you are a mommy...full time...You have every right to feel a little sorry for yourself once in a while or a whole bunch:) But seriously you are human, no one person on earth could deal with the things you go through and be strong through it all...You handle things with such grace, and I don't care what you say I think that post was necessary!!
And this person that said that in an email to you about Philip, they should be ashamed of themselves and they obviously need to be searching for God's guidance and some compassion!!!
(((((((((((((HUGS & PRAYERS)))))))))
Hey Amy, I forgot I wanted to tell you about a song that helps me when I am having rough times.. You may know it but I thought I should share anyways.
The song is: Word Of God Speak by Mercy ME
If you don't have anyplace to download it to you can get it in a playlist at playlist.com
Just wanted to share..
I wont stop :)
Amy~
Just stopping by to assure you that I care about what happens to you and your family. I think you know that by now. I will never ask you to disclose personal information or write things to you that could cause you hurt. You have my prayers, my support, and my friendship.
I just found your blog from my friend Merrianne's. I hope you come across some better times soon!
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I am late catching up here but feel I need to say..please don't feel guilty at all...with all you deal with I don't know how you do it, you are an amazing mom,wife,caregiver,friend,an all around awesome lady...most would crumble..it is just so much. I feel like this, if you want to talk you will, if you want to share you will and if not that is fine too.I am so glad you share so much of your and your family's journey..it is a remarkable one that is teaching me in my own life.Thanks for being you!
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