Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Long Day..Short Update

I have a lot of things I want to update concerning Philip's appt yesterday and today. I am sure you will all understand if I wait till tomorrow to post the update.

I am not feeling too good tonight. I just have not rebounded this week from last weeks treatment. I have felt exhausted and sick all week. I think everything is just catching up with me. Tomorrow is Thursday which is treatment day. So I am going to try to take some nausea meds tonight and get some rest.

In truth I also need time to adjust to some of the news . I feel like I am a tad "off". About the time I think I have come to terms with some of the decisions and issues..I let myself think too much about it..or I realise something I did not think about..and all of the sudden I feel far from a place I would call ..acceptance. Baby steps...I guess.

Today has been a day that has proven to me once again that I can not get through all this alone. I am going to cling to my faith and hold on tight. Because I do not want to feel bitter or angry or sad. I want to feel faith , love and some peace.
I wanted to share something so sweet with each of you. Many of you know that Philip ( aka Duppy to Cole ) and Cole are so very just makes me melt. Today I did not have anyone to watch Cole for a DR appt Philip had. So when he woke up I asked him if he wanted to go and take Philip to the DR. He said with a big smile. Yes I do. I will hold his hand and make sure he is okay. And let me share he stayed right by Philip's side. In fact when the DR came in to exam Philip..he said Cole..let me see Philip's hand for a second and then you can have it back. Melts my heart. Gosh I love their relationship. So sweet and so innocent.

I wanted to share a few cute pictures I snapped with my phone. How sweet that Cole loves Philip so much and wants to take such good care of him. I know this operation will be hard for Cole to understand. We have been talking about it some to prepare him...but Cole thinks his kisses will fix Philip. Oh how I wish that were true.


Stacie said...

Those pictures of your Philip and Cole are soooo sweet. Made me tear up. I hope you start to feel better soon. Take care of yourself.

IJ y JDs Mami said...

Hey Partner.. How you doin'? hope all is well.. i'll be prayin' for your appt. Love the pics of your boys.. they look sweet together.. well I hope you get your package before Mother's Day ....i check'd the confermation no.. and it is in florida tonite so maybe tomorrow you get it.. May our Hevenly Father Bless you & your Family Always...

Mari said...

Those are the sweetest pictures!

Lisa said...

Simply precious!! Cole seems like such a sweet boy and to be looks like Philip enjoyed Cole's company! I wish kisses would make things all better with everything too.

Get some rest girl. Hope you are feeling better soon.


April said...

They are defintely buddies for ifs, ands, or buts about it! You can just tell how tight their bond is! Really puts a lump in my throat! That's how it SHOULD be between siblings, but doesn't always work out that way. So sweet!

Take good care, my friend...hope you have a better day today.

Blessed Mom of 8 said...

Ok, most times I come to your blog and say no crying this time.

But those photos Amy - oh my!

Does a Mommy's heart good to see the Love you have poured into them being shared so deeply.

Oh how I wish it were true too Cole that your sweet love filled kisses could make it all better.

Father, we sit before You, asking You to work many miracles in the lives of this family. Grant them peace and strength that can only come from You. Hold them so tightly that they sense in a new way You are there. Shield their hearts from any arrow of bitterness or anger taking root! Father, comfort Amy and ease the pain as she only desires to stay strong in her faith. Give her a new hope, a new joy, a new peace, a new resolve in YOU!

I am asking You Daddy, to be the hands and feet for this family. TO draw them so close they can touch the hem of Your garmet for healing in whatever way You know they need it this day! I praise You Daddy for allowing me to come before You on their behalf and introducing me to such a beautiful family! I praise You and thank You for loving us all so good and knowing that we can do all things in You! In Your most blessed name I pray! AMEN!

Hugs and love Amy!

ixtapacheryl said...

Oh Amy those pictures are precious.... You can just see the love between both of them.

Believe me those kisses from Cole do have magic healing ingredients so just let him shower Phillip with as many as he wants to give.

My prayers are continuing and if I don't post between now and your birthday - HAPPY BIRTHDAY my friend. Mine's coming up at well on 5/22. First time in 31 years I won't have Jeff here besides me making me laugh and singing Happy Birthday. One step at a time is all I can deal with at this time.

Vickie said...

Oh Amy!!! Those are the sweetest photos I have seen in a very long time...I'm crying like a baby over here!

You continue to be in my prayers


Crystal said...

Bless your heart! I will be praying for you all. I have to run a few errands but once I return I would love to read more and catch up on your blog. I would also like to add your prayer button to my blog if you do not mind.

Thank you for your sweet comment!

Charmaine said...

Jill, what a beautiful brought more tears to my eyes. The pictures of Cole with Philip brought the first set and then the part of Coles kisses. Wouldn't it be wonderful if all of us adults could have the faith and love of a child, to believe so simply in what is good and just.

Amy, sending prayers that you get through todays treatments, that you got a good nights sleep so that you will have the strength to endure, praying for Philip that he finds strength and peace today and for little Cole to continue to have the faith of a child and that is precious pure little heart is never broken.

misty said...

Those pics are so so can just see the love between's just the best! I'm praying for you to feel better soon and hope you can get some rest. Take care!

OhYeahBabe said...

Those pictures say it all about Philip and Cole! It's so good that it occurred to you to take those pictures during all that stress. You'll all treasure them forever!

I will keep praying for your whole family, Amy.I'm sorry you're feeling so unwell from the last treatment. I hope it's a sign of a fierce battle being waged within your body. The cancer doesn't stand a chance!

Vivian Hicks said...

What a special bond that Phillip & Cole have.

I am praying that you and Phillip get better real soon. God Bless you both.

Mimi said...

How very special for them to be so close. What a good little man helping out. I know this is hard for you. I know you need help. God is there with you. Give it all to Him. Let Him carry the pain. I am praying for you and Philip.

Also, I wore your socks today. Thank you!


Rene said...

What a beautiful set of pictures!! So, so sweet!!

Big hugs for you today -- hang in there!


bluesuede said...

I don't know how much older Philip is than Cole, but my brother is 9 years older than me and we have a very close relationship. I'm wishing the best for all of you in the days ahead.

Kristen Andrews said...

great pictures and that is so nice that they both adore each other! sweet! Love, Faith, Hope!

Krissy said...

What wonderful photographs! I too wish we could all go to that place where a kiss on a scraped knee made everything better!

CindyO. said...

Love those pictures!! Thanks for sharing.

Rachel said...

Oh geez... after a wreck of a day, I came home to see those pictures and it just made the whole day worthwhile.

What an amazing bond your boys have - it shines right through those pictures. I love how affectionate and devoted they are to eachother.

Thank you for blessing us with those... even though I know you are having a rough time.

Praying for rest and restoration and a great treatment day tomorrow - far better than you expect.


City girl turned Country Girl said...

OH Amy, I'm playing catch up again...internet down again... What great pictures of Philip and Cole, that is so sweet what Cole said!! Prayers your way!!!

.Keli. said...

What wonderful pictures of love! I cried...a little. I wish I were there to help you but just know that I'm praying! Lot's of hugs!! Love you!

Preppy 101 said...

I read your blog and follow you on Twitter.
Your boys mirror the kind of love they have in their home and you are the reason for that!! Happy Mother's Day and Happy Birthday. I hope you feel better. I hope you can feel the warmth, hugs, and prayers that bloggers from all over the world are sending you. xoxo

Hope said...

Amy, I've been thinking about you and your family all week. ((HUGE HUGS)) I love the pictures.

Shari said...

The pics made me smile! Such a neat bond. Know I continue to pray for your family regularly!