Saturday, April 4, 2009
Does This Look Like A Face That?
Does This Look Like A Face That Wants To Watch The Movie Marley And Me?
See I have heard about this movie...sweet cute movie... But let me just tell you that my emotions are RAW this weekend. I am sick..I mean really sick. I have cried and cried and well cried. Everything has caught up with me. And I am just going to say it. You who say I am strong..Ha...No I am not. Not this weekend.
And I heard that while this movie is all sweet and loving it has a a "ending" that may just put me over the edge. It will not take much.
So I say I am sorry I just need to lay down and not watch the movie. Mommy is sick and can not watch the movie. Sometimes mommy just has to say no. yep...No to the movie ...
So Cole comes over and says Mommy can we Please watch Marley...
So now I am watching Marley.
I guess I need to just say this...I am struggling. I have faith. I have trust in God. I am still struggling. I am not feeling well. I am tired of dumping on you that I am not feeling well. I have a paranoid feeling everyone I know and live with is tired of me not feeling well. Philip's medical issues are so complex and scary it takes my breathe away. And on top of having to watch him live through it we are trying to schedule it, get it approved and pay for it.
Okay I am done now...Really I am..
Back to watching Marley and Me with the best medicine of all..My sweet Cole Tre.
Posted at 9:05 PM