Philip is having the procedure today. We left the house when it was still dark out...early....I have been sitting here in the surgery waiting with too much time to think.
After speaking to the Dr this morning I realize that we have a very long road ahead of us and this is not going to be a easy path.
Philip will need to be 100% weened off ALL his meds before the next major step of this. The DR agreed that this would be VERY hard and VERY scary but it is the ONLY way to do the next step of this. As he said. This is a severe step for a severe operation.
I am trying really hard to just think of today's step and not the next. But to be honest the next step scares . I just am not sure how far his body can be pushed. yet we need to push it to help him.
I will just ask that you pray for peace for me today. Because as a mom I am worn out. Yesterday just put me in a place I have not been in a long time. I hate feeling this way. It is not good for me , the family or anyone. I am trying to snap out of it. But I am feeling worn and weak today.
I am going to pray for a renew of strength and patience. And a lot of HOPE.
I will let you know when Philip is in recovery and I know some news.
Thank you all for lifting my spirits and lifting me up in prayer. I always feel such comfort from each of you when I log on and read the comments.