I wanted to address a few things...
First of all I have NEVER been anything but blunt honest and down to earth in my blog. Knowing myself like I think I do...That will not change...even if I wanted it to...and well...I do not.
First let me thank all of you for your wonderful response to my earlier post
As always the "just getting it out" was more helpful then I had thought it would be. Maybe I just needed to say it out loud and have it heard. And then your sweet comments of support was so helpful. What a wonderful group of ladies I have who support me and my family. Thank You all so much.
I wanted to address the comment about getting professional help. I know that I do not need to share this but I want to. It is something I am proud of because it was not easy and yet so good for me.
I spent a year seeing a wonderful man name George who helped me become the person I am today. He was gentle and caring while forcing me to take responsibility for my life. What a year that was. I do not even remember the person I was before George. A added bonus that I did not know about George until a few months into our appts...he spent years in school to become a minister and changed his career. So I got a added bonus of knowledge from George during our appts.
The truth is....no amount of professional treatments is going to erase my hurt or disappointment I have for my son and the pain he has to deal with on a daily basis. Now dealing with those emotions is something I have learned to deal with. But in truth I think I could sit in a DR office everyday and that will not give me the answers I need. So who can give me those answers? God. And so far he has not answered that for me. Could it be I have not asked in the right way? Often enough? Or maybe I have not listened to the answers. I will work on that...at home..in Private and maybe sometimes in my blog...and IF I need George...I will be the first one to dial his number.
One more thing I wanted to address is the private emails ....I know we each have our own reasons for reading certain blogs. I am sorry you had to stop following my blog because it was a "downer" . But what I am even more sorry about is the fact you had to email me and tell me how you felt. I am NOT here to entertain anyone...Being a mom to 4 children and a wife...I do enough "trying to please" I just can not do it daily in my blog. Sorry...It is best you just not follow...Good decision.
Soooo...with all that being said...
How the heck is everyone night going? Are you all keeping warm?