Sunday, January 11, 2009

Follow up : If I had everything ..what would I wish for?

Wow you guys had some great thoughts. You are all very blessed and very wise. I received a few emails asking me if I was depressed. Umm..no not depressed..just frustrated. But as I am learning that is to be expected and is okay.
The reason I posted that question yesterday is...

Jim was driving me home from a hard Dr appt and we were talking. I found myself saying...I wish this and why can we not do the testing this way vs that way. Jim added his thoughts in and after this long conversation I was completely frustrated and said..well you know If I had everything I wanted...what would I wish for?

It was a light bulb moment for me. If I had all this go the way I THOUGHT it should go...how would I grow from this experience? It would be such a waste of time in my life if this time period just was..I do not want to give up hours, days, weeks maybe years of my life to fight this illness and not come out of it any stronger or wiser.

So my attitude for those crazy days that I think I should be able to control...

If I had everything....what would I wish for?

10 comments:

misty said...

Wow...awesome attitude Amy! You are a very wise...great way to look at things beyond our control.

He And Me + 3 said...

I love light bulb moments. God so tenderly teaches us life lessons doesn't He?

Melissa said...

It's all about control...and just how much we lose when we're ill.

Sending you soft squishy (((hugs)))

Chef E said...

After raising two beautiful children (one terminally ill) I would have to say that God gives back those moments by the memories we all shared together...

If I had everything- I would wish for it all over again!

annie kelleher said...

i like to think the challenges aren't there to stop us, they're there to show us what we're made of. you're made aof some great stuff! :)

Lisa said...

I admire you Amy, I have rough days too and I am not working my way through to recovery as you are, so consider yourself a strong, admirable example.

April said...

You inspire me so much, Amy...Keep hanging in there!!!

Shannon said...

Hi Amy,
I'm only on here for a minute or two I just don't even have energy to do a full post. I wanted to say how great it's been to feel so much love and prayers during this time. You are wonderful!
Shannon

Amy Fichtner said...

He Amy, DOn't get discouraged about people asking you i you are depressed. I htink you make it VERY clear that you are not depressed and that you are thankful for life. I think you are hadling everything great compared to how most would have handled it. I think your true spirt shines thorugh, even on you 'truthful "posts.

Tiffany said...

My dad always says, "If wishes were horses, we'd all take a ride."

It used to make me nuts when I was a kid. Now, it holds some crazy wisdom.