For some reason I am having a hard time posting in my blog. I feel out of sorts and a tad overwhelmed. I think everything has caught up with me. I have been trying to do more and of course that means I am really sore. But that is part of healing. It will take time..but it will happen. One thing is for sure my surgeon was really honest when she explained the details of this operation...it has kicked my butt. I ended up sleeping quite a bit this weekend after my appt on Saturday.
I have a busy week ahead. I have some appts with the oncologist and the ID DR. I am now on a 12 week course of antibiotics to try to deal with the infection. I am due to have some specialty blood work done Friday. I have a MRI of my left breast, a cat scan and a pet scan ( PET is in 4 weeks) . I may glow by the time I am done. I am hopeful to have some good results from some of my blood work that has been pending. I am very hopeful to have some good news to report later this week.
Philip and I had our first conflict with appts. We both have things scheduled for tomorrow. After speaking to his Dr , it was decided to hold off on his appt. He was due to have a muscle test done...and in truth Philip is not in the best health right now to have that done. Plus his Dr felt my appt was more important. How nice to have Philip's Dr care about my appts and medical condition. Just goes to show what wonderful Dr Philip has.
Speaking of Philip, we have gotten some hard news this past week. Still working on the details and taking some time as a family to digest everything. We also have had to make some hard decisions regarding his education. So if you could please keep Philip in your prayers . He is such a wonderful young man . I hate that he is struggling so much. I can not help but feel like it is his time for a BREAK.
I am having a issue with my face. Lately that seems to be a major issue. The medication has made my face swell some days and turn beat red. It has become paper thin in areas and if I rub it ..it easily can bleed. I know this is a side effect of the meds and it is not constant. But it is annoying. Plus I will be honest and say..I am pretty sure my face is going to scar from the infection I had on it after the operation. I hope not. I know it is not the end of the world and a small price to pay.....But I hope it heals without scars.
I am trying hard to pull something from real deep inside of me. Some days I feel strong and others I feel like a mess. I have had some pretty serious anxiety lately. I have never really had a issue with it before and I must admit I hate it. I find myself worrying about things that are not important or things that are pretty scary. It has me feeling pretty alone. I know in my heart I am far from alone...yet I feel pretty alone most days. I am taking baby steps. One appt, one day at a time. This too shall pass...right?
I am going to wake up tomorrow with a fresh outlook. I am going to walk into the appts tomorrow with a positive mojo...how is that for a attitude..lol