Monday, January 19, 2009

Baby Steps

I figured out today that what I have been trying to say is I am having a hard time not feeling like myself. Feeling out of sorts, tired, cranky and on edge. That about describes me.
So as I laid in bed this morning I decided I had a choice. I could lay here and feel the same way day after day or I could drag my self up and make a plan. Know what I did?
I laid here and made a plan...lol
So my plan is simple. My plan is to just try not to worry so much about how I am suppose to be and to just BE..simple huh?
This is a busy week with test. And since I know so many of you are great prayer warriors I wanted to mention the dates so maybe you can remember me on those days.
I am expecting some pretty important blood work back this week maybe as early as tomorrow.
I have some follow up blood levels done this Wednesday.
I have a follow up chest CT on Thursday for the nodules on my chest.
I have a MRI of my left breast on Monday.
I have a special kidney study done on Tuesday of next week.

I am going to TRY hard to not control the what if's and the out comes ...I am going to just be there with my medications on board and behave for the test...lol

Baby Steps...small baby steps. I can do this...and I will. This is not the end of the world. I will come out of this stronger . I have so many blessings in my life ..I need to focus on those .

I hope you all have a blessed day.

15 comments:

Ann said...

There are a lot of people who could learn A LOT from you. I know I can.

I'll keep praying....you keep fighting!

mama's smitten said...

Just remember you are not alone.
I will keep you in my prayers, my new friend.

AmberP said...

And that's all you can do.
One step at a time, and you can bet your behind I will be praying like mad!

annie kelleher said...

wishing you a blessed week, too, sweetie... hope it all goes well and as planned and that you and your son are healed soon!!!! hugs and thanks for all you did to promote my new giveaway!!! hope you win ;).

The Thompson's said...

Hey Amy,

First timer here! Seems we are in some of the same bloggy cirlces so I thought I would come check ya out. I love your blog and you have a beautiful family. I hope you dont mind if I become a follower. I always prefer followers over lurkers at out site.

Please feel free to stop by and visit us as well if you like. YOu can even follow with us too if you desire.

Have a great week!

God Bless.

Lisa said...

I left my comment on your giveaway post so I decided to leave it again. You hang in there Amy, I am so proud of your good attitude and remember God is Able to do above and beyond what we could ever imagine. I am praying for you.

April said...

Amy,

Read Phillipians 4:6-7...I think it will give you a lot of comfort. I know it has for me on many occasions. God Bless You as you wait on your test results and get new tests done. Stay stong, my friend...God is ever near!

Grace said...

God Bless You!

Aspiemom said...

Sounds like a plan! (Baby steps)

Wow, you really do have a lot of tests this week. Thanks for letting us know so we can pray for you.

bluesuede said...

I'll be praying for you ...

He And Me + 3 said...

Amy,

You are truly amazing! I think your plan is a great one. I will be praying for you!

feather k said...

I like your statement about "just be"...baby steps is all any of us can do...God bless!

Jen said...

You are in my prayers.

Jen

Christy said...

I'll be praying for you this week. Your attitude is amazing!!

misty said...

You have a great attitude, we know you can do this and we are with you! Special prayers this week as you deal with more testing and for good outcomes on all the labs and tests. We're all pulling for you,dear lady...hang in there!