I figured out today that what I have been trying to say is I am having a hard time not feeling like myself. Feeling out of sorts, tired, cranky and on edge. That about describes me.
So as I laid in bed this morning I decided I had a choice. I could lay here and feel the same way day after day or I could drag my self up and make a plan. Know what I did?
I laid here and made a plan...lol
So my plan is simple. My plan is to just try not to worry so much about how I am suppose to be and to just BE..simple huh?
This is a busy week with test. And since I know so many of you are great prayer warriors I wanted to mention the dates so maybe you can remember me on those days.
I am expecting some pretty important blood work back this week maybe as early as tomorrow.
I have some follow up blood levels done this Wednesday.
I have a follow up chest CT on Thursday for the nodules on my chest.
I have a MRI of my left breast on Monday.
I have a special kidney study done on Tuesday of next week.
I am going to TRY hard to not control the what if's and the out comes ...I am going to just be there with my medications on board and behave for the test...lol
Baby Steps...small baby steps. I can do this...and I will. This is not the end of the world. I will come out of this stronger . I have so many blessings in my life ..I need to focus on those .
I hope you all have a blessed day.